"Jantung berdebar atau dalam bahasa kedokteran disebut takikardi jika oleh suatu keadaan denyut jantung melebihi 100 kali per menit. Banyak hal yang bisa menyebabkan jantung berdebar seperti masalah sirkulasi darah, tekanan darah tinggi atau kolesterol, kekurangan kalium dan aritmia."

Mau komentar soal foto ini aaaaaah ~

Ini foto iwan pas awal pacaran dulu hihi namapak dari matanya dia kurang tidur, kecapekaaan, rambutnya masih panjang. Dia masih kerja di warnet. Dulu pas rambutnya masih kyk gitu teman-teman di kampus suka ngeledekin kalo dia anak emo, gak ke orangnya langsung sih, tapi lewat aku hihi. Tapi kangeeeeeeeeen banget sama orang yang ini, baiknye luar biase lah pokoknye, 4 thumbs up ahahaha kalo boleh pinjam jempol tambah agiklah sampai tak terhingga :">

Sayaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaang banget sm orang ini, sampe sekarang juga sayang kok (ʃƪ˘˘ﻬ) ♡

Mungkin memang masih perlu waktu untuk bisa nerima kenyataan kalo orang yg sekarang gak akan pernah bisa sebaik orang yg di foto ini. Yeaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah, c'est la vie ☺

i love this guy... ♥

GAME OVER !!!

Hei, apakabar? bingung nih mau mulai nulis darimana. banyak hal yg udah terjadi belakangan ini, banyak banget yg pengen di bagi, intinya saya udah gak lagi sama Mr. Setiawan, gak tau dianya yg ninggalin atau saya, rumit.

Dia memang bukan lagi orang yg dulu saya kenal, bukan lagi pria baik hati yg pernah menyelamatkan dan memperjuangkan saya. Dia yg sekarang udah capek di atur, yah inilah yg saya takutkan selama ini. Dia mulai merasa kalo saya melakukan tindakan penindasan, yeeeaaaaaah.. saya minta maaf untuk sikap saya selama ini, gak ada maksud sedikitpun utk seperti itu, dan walaupun terkadang mmg harus di akui saya kelewatan. Tapi semua itu saya lakukan karna saya teramat sangat menyayangi dia, terlalu takut kehilangan dia. Dan sekarang ketika semua itu hanya akan membuatnya tidak nyaman. saya menyerah, dengan cara yg aneh. saya sendiri juga heran knapa harus dengan cara itu, tapi cuma itu yg bisa bikin dia melepaskan saya sepenuhnya, Dan sekarang dia sudah melepaskan sya, dan mau tidak mau saya harus merelakannya. Untuk kebahagiaannya, saya ikhlas...

Terlalu banyak kenangan memang, sangat berat. Satu motivasi yg selalu menguatkan saya, INI UNTUK KEBAHAGIAAN DIA, saya harus kuat, saya pasti bisa, ini hanya proses, saya yakin waktu akan mengembalikannya seperti semula, saat saya dan dia belum saing kenal.

Kenangan mmg akan terus menghantui saya, kenangan bersama dia yg dulu tentunya... dan kenangan itu gak akan pernah hilang, kenangan itu saya biarkan hidup dihati dan pikiran saya tetapi saya coba mengisinya dengan kenangan bersama orang yg saat ini sedang memperjuangkan saya agar bisa 'bangkit'. Life must go on, masa depan udah nunggu di depan saya. Saya gak boleh berlarut² dlm kesedihan. Saya yakin suatu saat saya akan terbiasa dengan keadaan ini, saya sangat yakin. Dan pada saat itu saya akan baik-baik saja saat melihatnya dengan wanita lain, saya akan baik-baik saja saat melihat foto kami, saya akan baik-baik saja jika ternyata dia sudah benar-benar melupakan saya....

isn't same :(

Aku sayang kamu... setiawan ♥ kemarin, sekarang, besok, selamanya... terkesan gombal/lebay? tapi memang itu yg sedang saya rasakan. saya mencintainya, lebid dari saya menyayangi diri saya sendiri. terlalu lama waktu yg saya lalui bersama dia. terlalu banyak hal yang terjadi, terlalu banyak perjuangannya buat saya dan itu sangat berarti buat saya. tapi sekarang, meskipun saya sering mendengar dia mengucapkan 'i love you' tetapi saya tidak merasakannya lagi. kamu jauh, bukan cuma raga kmu tapi hati kmu ! bukannya mengeluh, tapi inilah yang saya rasakan belakangan ini. entah kenapa.

Jalan kita masih panjang, aku harus menyelesaikan kuliahku, 2 tahun lagi. akankan kita masih bisa bertahan dengan keadaan seperti ini hingga saat itu tiba? hmm... aku tidak yakin. setelah yang terjadi 17 bulan ini terlalu banyak perubahan. aku tidak mengenalmu lagi. satu hal yang paling aku rasakan sekarang, kau tidak takut kehilanganku / aku tak berarti lagi bagimu / ada tidaknya aku tidak akan ada pengaruhnya bagimu. yaaaa, itu benar benar terasa.

"ya tuhaaaaaaaaaaaaaaan aku ingin dia menjadi suami saya nanti... tapi jika memang dia bukan jodoh saya, saya mohon sengan teramat sangat bagaimanapun caranya jauhkan dia dari saya.. tapi jika memang dialah jodoh saya, tolong kembalikan dia seperti dulu, seperti saat kesalahan-kesalahan itu belum terjadi (˘ʃƪ˘)"

senin, 17 oktober 2011. melakukan kesalahan besar. menghasilkan kemarahan besar. MAAF. tidak ada sedikitpun niat buat ngkhianatin dia. aku cuma ndk tega sm laki-laki itu. tiap malam sms "saloook :'(". aku jahat. laki-lki itu juga tau kalo aku sayangnya cuma sama si "kecambah", dia bilang cuma belom bisa jauh dr aku. "kecambah", maafin elis. :'(((((((((((((((((((((

yeah, its Oct 16th !

make it last, dear (┌'⌣')┌♥┐('⌣'┐)

i remember, you?

17th month

hey. tadi pagi saya sedang memikirkan tentang apa yang harus saya lakukan di anniversary bulan ini. dan ketika pikiran saya teralihkan pukul 10.16pm pacar saya mengucapkan "Happy aniversarry 17bulan @ulisssd ♥" via @megolhomer on twitter. yeaaaaaaaaaah, tanggal 15 atau 16 saya pikir bukan masalah, karena yang terpenting adalah dia masih ingat dan mau ngucapkan 'happy annivrsary'. thanks God, smoga ini menandakan bahwa dia ttetap mencintai saya, seperti 17bulan yang lalu huhu. harapan dibulan ini, semoga hubungan kami semakin membaik dan satu lagi, kalo mmg dia jodoh saya semoga Tuhan semakin mendekatkan kami, kalau dia mmg bukan jodoh saya semoga saya bisa ikhlas menerima kenyataan. amin.

bagi saya 17 bulan bukanlah waktu yg pendek, karna sebelumnya belum pernah pacaran selama ini, atau bisa dibilang belom ada seorang 'pria' yang mampu memahami saya sejauh ini. Setiawan. dialah orang pertama ☺ dan saya sangat berharap banyak dialah pria terakhir yang akan saya dampingi nantinya. sangat sangat berharap. (˘ʃƪ˘)

October night

Me and Short Holiday

pantainya horor, tapi eksotis meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeen ! \m/

...semoga

barusan abis liat² daftar komentar di pstingan lama. masih ada komentar² 'the old of him' yang manis². aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa gak bisa nahan air mataa :'( terasa sekali perbedaannya dengan sekarang. aku kangen dia, kangen dia yg dulu. ya tuhaaaaaaaaaaan aku mau dia yg dulu, kasi aku dia yang dulu, aku mau memperbaiki kesalahanku :'( karna aku tahu. sekarang dia udah ndak 'teramat sangat' cinta lagi sm aku. dia udah ndak takut kehilangan aku. dia udah bisa hidup tanpa aku. semoga dia bisa kembali lagi kayak dulu, SEMOGA. amin... (˘ʃƪ˘)

'kecambah'

'kecambah' itu pria yang saya kenal setahun lebih yang lalu. 'kecambah' itu pahlawan saya, melepaskan saya dari setan terjahanam. 'kecambah' itu selalu membuat saya tersenyum. 'kecambah' itu orang yang setahu saya menerima masa lalu saya. 'kecambah' itu hal yang pertama kali saya ingat ketika saya terbangun dari tidur. 'kecambah' itu punya saya. 'kecambah' itu pria yang tetap saya cinta sampai saat ini. 'kecambah' itu pria kedua setelah ayah saya yg merupakan pria super. 'kecambah' itu rela melakukan apa saja untuk saya. 'kecambah' itu pria yang saya harapkan menjadi suami saya nantinya. 'kecambah'... saya ingin kamu yang dulu, kamu yang setiap harinya melakukan hal-hal manis untuk saya, bukan pria yang cuek seperti sekarang... saya merindukan 'kecambah' yang dulu saya kenal... :'(

HOLIDAY EVERYDAY part 1

Hello, how are you ? ☺

lil cousin ☺

nur deli

The person meant for you is the person who will stay even when there's no more reason to love you.

BANJIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIR !

taken from my mobile camera

Sandy - Be My Lady

Since I’ve known you babe
You brought a light for me
The taste of your sincerety
Build me a world to believe

But still there’s a doubt
In you for lovin’ me
Know deep down inside
You see what’s in me

Reff :
Be my lady, be the one
And good things will come to our heart
You’re my lady, you’re my one
Give me chance to show you love

I did not mean to leave you when you're slumped, dear .. circumstances that do not allow us to be together again. hopefully you are much happier without me, I hope so. should you know, I love what it is and will always be so even though we're not together anymore ♥

his face poisoning my brain :o

si Megol

his haircut made ​​me fall in love for the third time...

hey !

nobody to your place in my heart

This one too !

Beberapa hal yg ingin kusampaikan padanya, jadilah pria yg baik, yg menghargai wanita sebagaimana dia menghargai ibu kandungnya. Belajarlah dr pengalaman, jgn pernah kesalahan yg dia lakukan padaku terulang pada wanita lainnya. Jgn pernah bosan bekerja selama itu halal. Jgn pernah kembali ke masalalu, jadikan masalalu itu pelajaran. Kalau sampai dia melakukan kesalahan yg sama mungkin tidak aka nada kesempatan lagi utk menebusnya. Dan terakhir semoga anda berbahagia tanpa saya, senang pernah menjadi orang yg anda cintai J

You must read this!

Aku pikir dengan begitu masalah akan selesai, aku tidak akan menghubunginya, begitu juga dia tidak akan menghubungiku. Mungkin itu hanya emosi sesaat dan sepertinya menjadi akhir dari segalanya, akhir dari hubungan yang aku perjuangkan selama tepat 46minggu (322hari). Sesampainya dirumah aku menelpon sepupunya dan menyuruhnya mengaktifkan nomer im3nya, dan kalian tau apa? Ternyata dia udah pulang, pulang kekotanya, kota yg mungkin penuh dengan kebahagiaan untuknya… Dia akan memulai hidup batu disana, bersama keluarganya, teman-teman yg begitu menyayanginya.. dan mungkin (tidak lama lagi) dia akan menemukan wanita yg akan menggantikan posisiku dihatinya, seperti sebelumnya, sebelum dia mengenalku. Ya Tuhan, aku harap dia membaca ini, karena aku tidak sempat berterima kasih untuk segala pengorbanannya untukku, perjuangannya… yang mungkin tidak akan pernah aku temukan pada laki-laki lain terimakasih untuk segalanya… J aku juga ingin meminta maaf, karena terlalu sering menyusahkan dan menyakitinya. Terutama kemarin malam (april 1th) aku mengakhiri hubunganku dengannya, menamparnya, memukulinya.. maafkan elis Gol… dan satu hal yang harus selalu dia ingat. Aku tetap mencintainya, bahkan mungkin kedepannya nanti dia telah mencintai wanita lain dan melupakanku.. aku tetap mencintainya J karna mungkin dialah laki-laki terakhir dalam hidupku… karena aku tidaklah yakin masih ada pria sebaik dia diluar sana. Pria yg sabar menghadapiku, pria yg menerima keadaanku, pria yg tidak pernah mempermasalahkan masalaluku…

dear Megol...

Today, with stomach cramps I woke up. Completing daily work at home and ready to depart. Expect today to be a fun day for me and (either former or still my boyfriend)MEGOL. All was fine when he got home his cousin, just that we do not have a goal today... because I'm "coming months" or something ... I still see her smile, not unthinkable ifeventually end up like this. Maybe all this due to selfishness, too, I scold him because hedared me to Pontianak, but next week I was there, and I do not want to. after returning totown, I scold him, the emotion (perhaps due to PMS). And I wanted to take her to thebeach which is being held "Kejurda Racing". Therein lies the fault (confess), do notconvey my wishes. After drove him to drink and eat (we had time to meet friends in college) he asks the next destination. I-come with emotion at his behavior and said 'go home'. on the road to his cousin's house, he was silent, so until he went down withoutlooking, without thinking I destroy the sim card (which I have just replace) hahaha :D

MAD !

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“Perfection is boring. If a face doesn’t have mistakes, its nothing.”

—	Kevyn Aucoin.

bolos BINTAL :o

True friends are like shooting stars. Rare to see but lucky to have.

– DRT, twitter. (via 21jan)

me and my boyf -

kisskug :* ({})

50 Things You Need To Give Up Today

When you stop chasing the wrong things, you give the right things a chance to catch you.

So starting today…

1. Give up trying to be perfect. – The real world doesn’t reward perfectionists, it rewards people who get things done. Read Getting Things Done.
2. Give up comparing yourself to others. – The only person you are competing against is yourself.
3. Give up dwelling on the past or worrying too much about the future. – Right now is the only moment guaranteed to you. Right now is life. Don’t miss it.
4. Give up complaining. – Do something about it.
5. Give up holding grudges. – Grudges are a waste of perfect happiness.
6. Give up waiting. – What we don’t start today won’t be finished by tomorrow. Knowledge and intelligence are both useless without action.
7. Give up lying. – In the long-run the truth always reveals itself. Either you own up to your actions or your actions will ultimately own you.
8. Give up trying to avoid mistakes. – The only mistake that can truly hurt you is choosing to do nothing simply because you’re too scared to make a mistake.
9. Give up saying, “I can’t.” – As Henry Ford put it, “Whether you think you can or you think you can’t, you are right.”
10. Give up trying to be everything to everyone. – Making one person smile can change the world. Maybe not the whole world, but their world. Start small. Start now.
11. Give up thinking you’re not ready. – Nobody ever feels 100% ready when an opportunity arises. Because most great opportunities in life force us to grow beyond our comfort zones, which means we won’t feel totally comfortable at first.
12. Give up setting small goals for yourself. – Many people set small goals because they’re afraid to fail. Ironically, setting these small goals is what makes them fail.
13. Give up trying to do everything by yourself. – You are the sum of the people you spend the most time with. If you work together, you will be far more capable and powerful than you ever could have been alone.
14. Give up buying things you don’t need. – Manage your money wisely so your money does not manage you. Do not spend to impress others. Do not live life trying to fool yourself into thinking wealth is measured in material objects. Read I Will Teach You To Be Rich.
15. Give up blaming others for your troubles. – The extent to which you can live your dream life depends on the extent to which you take responsibility for your life. When you blame others for what you’re going through, you deny responsibility – you give others power over that part of your life.
16. Give up making mountains out of molehills. – One way to check if something is worth mulling over is to ask yourself this question: “Will this matter in one year’s time? Three years? Five years? If not, then it’s not worth worrying about.
17. Give up trying to live up to the expectations of others. – Work on it for real and exceed your own expectations. Everything else will fall into place.
18. Give up the ‘easy street’ mentality. – There is too much emphasis on finding a ‘quick fix’ in today’s society. For example taking diet pills to lose weight instead of exercising and eating well. No amount of magic fairy dust replaces diligent, focused, hard work.
19. Give up making promises you can’t keep. – Don’t over-promise. Over-deliver on everything you do.
20. Give up letting your thoughts and feelings bottle up inside. – People are not mind readers. They will never know how you feel unless you tell them.
21. Give up beating around the bush. – Say what you mean and mean what you say. Communicate effectively.
22. Give up avoiding change. – However good or bad a situation is now, it will change. That’s the one thing you can count on. So embrace change and realize that change happens for a reason. It won’t always be easy or obvious at first, but in the end it will be worth it.
23. Give up your sense of entitlement. – Nobody is entitled to anything in this world. We are all equal. We breathe the same air. We get what we give. We get what we earn.
24. Give up waiting until the last minute. – Those who fail to plan, plan to fail.
25. Give up being dramatic. – Stay out of other people’s drama and don’t needlessly create your own.
26. Give up being anti-athletic. – Get your body moving! Simply take a long, relaxing walk or commit 30 minutes to an at-home exercise program like the P90X workout.
27. Give up junk food. – You are what you eat. Read The 4-Hour Body.
28. Give up eating as a means of entertainment. – Don’t eat when you’re bored. Eat when you’re hungry.
29. Give up foolish habits that you know are foolish. – Don’t text and drive. Don’t drink and drive. Don’t smoke. Etc.
30. Give up relationships with people who bring you down. – Saying “no” to right people gives you the time and resources required to say “yes” to right opportunities. Spend time with nice people who are smart, driven and likeminded.
31. Give up being shy. – Network with people. Meet new people. Ask questions. Introduce yourself.
32. Give up worrying about what others think of you. – Unless you’re trying to make a great first impression (job interview, first date, etc.), don’t let the opinions of others stand in your way. What they think and say about you isn’t important. What is important is how you feel about yourself.
33. Give up trying to control everything. – Life is an unpredictable phenomenon. No matter how good or bad things seem right now, we can never be 100% certain what will happen next. So do you best with what’s in front of you and leave the rest to the powers above you.
34. Give up doing the same thing over and over again. – In order to grow, you must expand your horizons and break free of your comfort zone. If you keep doing what you’re doing, you’ll keep getting what you’re getting.
35. Give up following the path of least resistance. – Life is not easy, especially when you plan on achieving something worthwhile. Don’t find the easy way out. Do something extraordinary.
36. Give up persistent multi-tasking. – Do one thing at a time and do it right.
37. Give up thinking others are luckier than you. – The harder you work, the luckier you will become.
38. Give up filling every waking moment with commitments and activities. – It’s okay to be alone. It’s okay to do nothing sometimes. Think. Relax. Breathe. Be.
39. Give up making emotional decisions. – Don’t let your emotions trump your intelligence. Slow down and think things through before you make any life-changing decisions.
40. Give up doing the wrong things just because you can get away with it. – Just because you can get away with something doesn’t mean you should do it. Think bigger. Keep the end in mind. Do what you know in your heart is right.
41. Give up focusing on what you don’t want to happen. – Focus on what you do want to happen. Positive thinking is at the forefront of every great success story. If you awake every morning with the thought that something wonderful will happen in your life today, and you pay close attention, you’ll often find that you’re right.
42. Give up taking yourself so seriously. – Few others do anyway. So enjoy yourself and have a little fun while you can.
43. Give up spending your life working in a career field you’re notpassionate about. – Life is too short for such nonsense. The right career choice is based on one key point: Finding hard work you love doing. So if you catch yourself working hard and loving every minute of it, don’t stop. You’re on to something big. Because hard work ain’t hard when you concentrate on your passions. Read The 4-Hour Workweek.
44. Give up thinking about the things you don’t have. – Appreciate everything you do have. Many people aren’t so lucky.
45. Give up doubting others. – People who are determined do remarkable things. Remember, the one who says it can’t be done should never interrupt the one doing it.
46. Give up fussing with every beauty product on the market. – Good looks attracts the eyes. Personality attracts the heart. Be proud to be you. That’s when you’re beautiful.
47. Give up trying to fit in. – Don’t mold yourself into someone you’re not. Be yourself. Oftentimes, the only reason they want you to fit in is that once you do they can ignore you and go about their business.
48. Give up trying to be different for the sake of being different. – Nonconformity for the sake of nonconformity is conformity. When people try too hard to be different, they usually end up being just like everyone else who is trying to be different. Once again, be yourself.
49. Give up trying to avoid risk. – There’s no such thing as ‘risk free.’ Everything you do or don’t do has an inherent risk.
50. Give up putting your own needs on the back burner. – Yes, help others, but help yourself too. If there was ever a moment to follow your passion and do something that matters to you, that moment is now.

And remember, mistakes make us human, failures help us grow, hope keeps us going and love is the reason we’re alive. So keep learning, loving and living. Never give up on yourself.